SHE.HER.

Monday, June 29, 2009

I notice that my temper is getting from bad to worse..can anyone enlighten me on how to manage my emotions? I cannot flare up so often..but I SHOULD flare up in front of my STUDENTS!!! I lost a bucket of blood this morning marking their 报章报道 la...I don't even know how to correct them from their sentences. I should NEVER consider taking up the MOE award which includes a bond with MOE..NEVER!!!

Friday, June 26, 2009

2009 had been both a good year and a bad year for me.

I had several bad experiences which has mostly got to do with school and stuff. I was rejected by both NTU and SMU and got into FASS in NUS, which I'm not exactly glad. I failed my Traffic Police test. I also got my appeals rejected. These are the bad things which also led to the good ones. All these experiences have made me a stronger person. I finally experienced rejections and failures. But all these are just slightly too heavy a blow for me to handle right now. Haix..

Sunday, June 21, 2009

A wise man told me: There are always two sides to things. It only depends on how you perceive them.
Thus, there will always be pros and cons to one matter right isn't it? You can always stick to your way of looking at things and magnify the disadvantages and keep harping on it. Or you can look at things from the other perspective and find that it is not actually as bad as you make it out to be.

The wise also said: A person will always be wearing a mask unless alone.
I had always thought this is true in the working world, the society forces us to do so. But if you pay attention, it's the same to anyone like you best friend, boy/girlfriend or even family members. Have you not tried to uphold your self-esteem in front of these people and to say something intelligent so as not to make a fool out of yourself? Have you ever tried to say something just to follow the crowd and not be the odd one out? But only when you are alone do you have the luxury to remove your mask, like relieving a heavy burden weighing down on you all the time. Even as I am typing out this post, I am thinking about how to phrase my words for my readers. Therefore, this is not the real me posting.

Being "jobless" has given me more personal time to think and rest. Thinking makes one grow, that' what I think. Maybe I should stop thinking so much as I am "old" enough as it is.

Maturity may not be a bad thing...right?

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Have you ever thought of the happy memories you once shared with your loved one and let out a smile unconsciously? What is the most memorable event which happened between you and your father? Fathers' day is just around the corner. What have you gotten your dad?

As time passed us by, these memories fade away too. The change in people made it even harder to remember the past and all it does is make you wonder if the past is true or just a dream. Because it is so difficult to believe you have spent really really great times together with this changed person. Therefore calling it a dream would be more appropriate.

I suck at being a friend, a girlfriend, a sister and also a daughter. So, please tell me what I am good at.
I seem strong but I am vulnerable too.