SHE.HER.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

The most dreaded topic of my life: Uni life.

I can't help but come rant over here so please pardon me if this sounds too sad for you.

School has started for 3 weeks and it is only getting tougher as the tutorials begin. Had my first calculus tutorial this afternoon and my knowledge on "limits" got from bad to worse. After that was a retarded math lab dealing with software. I was feeling so terrible after the tutorial that I started imagining me dropping out of Uni. And I had to be late and miss lab and so I was lost for a good half hour. At that time, I was just thinking of how pathetic I could be to be unable to ask for help from any friend at all, because I had none.

So I'm still lost for math and many many others. Work work work and more homework is waiting for me and I just feel too lousy to even think of them. Depressed. Hungry. Sleepy. Going for yet another lecture which I never knew what is it about. STUDY!

So it's not true when people say JC years are the toughest years of academic life. Uni is. ='[

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Aquarius is one of the hardest signs of the zodiac to understand. Aquarius are often felt to be unfathomable when in reality they live almost entirely on the surface.Aquarians will not reveal their innermost feelings no matter how hard others may try to persuade them, simply because they are unable to do so.People of this sign have a reputation for being enigmatic, difficult to understand, and different from everyone else, and cleverly play on this to gain power and attention.They are extremely friendly yet detached at a personal level, sociable in large gatherings, but unsociable at smaller meetings and parties which require greater intimacy.They are helpful and compassionate when involved with charities or group activities.

source: www.findyourfate.com

Friday, July 10, 2009

Many a times, we do not get what we want in life. We either try again or we accept it. In life, there is no such thing as perfection and I have to taste this harsh and cold reality. So I took the second option, which is to accept it. Take it as it is and make the best out of your limited resources. That is what we can and has always been doing. Life is like a piece of bare land given to you, empty and colourless. It is up to you to add life to it and make changes using what you have and maximise your given resources. Too bad, in this island, trading is banned and there is just nothing you can do about you materials. Sad life.

Make the best out of it...here I come...

Monday, June 29, 2009

I notice that my temper is getting from bad to worse..can anyone enlighten me on how to manage my emotions? I cannot flare up so often..but I SHOULD flare up in front of my STUDENTS!!! I lost a bucket of blood this morning marking their 报章报道 la...I don't even know how to correct them from their sentences. I should NEVER consider taking up the MOE award which includes a bond with MOE..NEVER!!!

Friday, June 26, 2009

2009 had been both a good year and a bad year for me.

I had several bad experiences which has mostly got to do with school and stuff. I was rejected by both NTU and SMU and got into FASS in NUS, which I'm not exactly glad. I failed my Traffic Police test. I also got my appeals rejected. These are the bad things which also led to the good ones. All these experiences have made me a stronger person. I finally experienced rejections and failures. But all these are just slightly too heavy a blow for me to handle right now. Haix..

Sunday, June 21, 2009

A wise man told me: There are always two sides to things. It only depends on how you perceive them.
Thus, there will always be pros and cons to one matter right isn't it? You can always stick to your way of looking at things and magnify the disadvantages and keep harping on it. Or you can look at things from the other perspective and find that it is not actually as bad as you make it out to be.

The wise also said: A person will always be wearing a mask unless alone.
I had always thought this is true in the working world, the society forces us to do so. But if you pay attention, it's the same to anyone like you best friend, boy/girlfriend or even family members. Have you not tried to uphold your self-esteem in front of these people and to say something intelligent so as not to make a fool out of yourself? Have you ever tried to say something just to follow the crowd and not be the odd one out? But only when you are alone do you have the luxury to remove your mask, like relieving a heavy burden weighing down on you all the time. Even as I am typing out this post, I am thinking about how to phrase my words for my readers. Therefore, this is not the real me posting.

Being "jobless" has given me more personal time to think and rest. Thinking makes one grow, that' what I think. Maybe I should stop thinking so much as I am "old" enough as it is.

Maturity may not be a bad thing...right?

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Have you ever thought of the happy memories you once shared with your loved one and let out a smile unconsciously? What is the most memorable event which happened between you and your father? Fathers' day is just around the corner. What have you gotten your dad?

As time passed us by, these memories fade away too. The change in people made it even harder to remember the past and all it does is make you wonder if the past is true or just a dream. Because it is so difficult to believe you have spent really really great times together with this changed person. Therefore calling it a dream would be more appropriate.

I suck at being a friend, a girlfriend, a sister and also a daughter. So, please tell me what I am good at.
I seem strong but I am vulnerable too.